I can see the desperation in her body language, the years of habit stirring deep within her. In spite of the biting cold, she gingerly and determinly struck the match. The cold makes her shake, especially her arms and hands, as an icy breeze blew out the flame. Frustrated, she tried again, the match bursts into life and this time she ignores the shakes and quickly lights the cigarette loosely lodged at her lips. That first drag fills her with satisfaction, her eyes closed and the cold breeze forgotten like a distant thought… the addiction.
I can relate to what smokers and alcoholics battle through. I myself have an addiction and it’s been eight days since I had my last hit. Eight days for goodness sakes…that’s torture! The struggle is immense, with so many views tempting me to satisfying that itch, but no, I can’t. Not because I want to, but I just can’t… my broken camera is driving me insane!!!! A few years ago, I would have gone to most places without a camera, but not these days. Some people can’t imagine travelling without their pets… my pet just happens to have a lens and it honestly doesn’t say much at all.
Getting away from Johannesburg’s increasingly chilly winter weather advance and noise is always a pleasure and this past weekend, my other half did just that. We blazed it down to the Lowveld, otherwise known as home. While there, drives through Long Tom Pass and several other scenic routes made up a good part of my relaxation, but without a camera, I felt naked. The internal turmoil was like two tectonic plates grinding it out. The gravity of the situation came to head at The Staircase, a lookout point along the steep, sinewy Long Tom Pass. The view was epic… we were so high up, with the clouds below us; it was as though we were walking on them. The couple next to us who had also stopped to take the view had a camera… I didn’t. Cue some Russian sounding words and a look that could kill… had the addiction kicked like a mule, it could have been the most bizarre robbery I tell you.
As I write this however, I’ve been informed that my camera is back to good health. My next hit will feel epic!